#Modyarhood : Pacaran Setelah Punya Anak

Assalamualaikum!

Enaknya jadi ibu-ibu milenial, semua ada di internet. Apa juga di google, warna poop anak aja saya google, sehat kagak nih. Tapi terkadang, sosmed juga ga terlalu baik buat saya. Karna saya jadi punya kecenderungan untuk membandingkan diri dengan ibu lain, atau bahkan membandingkan anak. Makanya itu saat @byputy dan @mamamolilo memulai topic #modyarhood saya jadi selalu ngikutin, baik blog maupun instagram page nya. Suka nunggu-nunggu postingan baru bahkan scroll baca ulang untuk me-"waraskan" diri. Saya jadi merasa oh saya ga sendiri ya ternyata. Seneng loh liat pandangan apa adanya ibu lain tanpa ada kesan menghakimi :)
Topik #modyarhood kali ini adalah : ngedate sama pasangan setelah punya anak. 

Dari jaman belum nikah, sebenarnya saya memang anak rumahan. Baru seneng jalan itu pas nikah, karna ya emang dah ga ada jam malem kali ya hehe. Dan lagi kami juga baru dikaruniai anak, setelah setahun menikah, jadi ya kita pol-pol-lin pacaran aja. Sejak Adzra lahir, kita belum pernah pergi ngedate. Pernah sih pergi ga bawa anak, cuma beberapa kali entah untuk urusan dokter, belanja ke Giant sekali, sama waktu urus pindahan (pas baca ulang kok kassian). Intinya saya ga merasa nyaman uituk menitipkan anak, baik ke orang tua, maupun ke mertua. Bukan pilhan deh untuk kondisi saya dan suami. Jadi memang pilhan nge-date itu memang selalu bertiga, bawa anak.

Setelah punya anak, saya dan suami bisa jadi gampang bahagia untuk hal-hal sepele (ya walaupun bisa jadi gampang marah untuk hal sepele juga). Yang dulunya selalu nge-mall, nonton bioskop tiap film marvel baru keluar, hunting kulineran. Nah sekarang bisa makan di kantin RSPI aja dah seneng banget (selalu pesen set nasi tongseng kambing dan es teh manis). Apalagi pas Adzra tidur anteng di stroller. Tapi sebenarnya alasan utama kita belum pernah nge-date (bertiga) keluar rumah adalah : RIBET. Ya ribet, apanya yang ribet ? ya saya sendiri yang bikin ribet (lah ngaku).

Ada gak sih yang kalau keluar rumah pergi bawa anak bawaannya kayak mau pindahan ? saya!. Sebanyak apa sih bun emangnya ?. Bawaan rutin kalo keluar rumah (ini setelan standard kalau kontrol ke RS ya) :

1. Stroller
2. Diaper bag ransel
3. Keranjang extra :
• Extra pampers
• Extra daleman
• Extra baju
• Extra tisu
• Extra selimut
• Extra bedongan
• Extra kaos kaki
• Pouch isi keperluan salep, minyak telon, thermometer dll.

Kenapa keranjang ? gampang, tinggal brak brek taro, angkat. Kadang kalau main ke rumah orang tua, ampe bawa kursi goyang Adzra. Yang pusing ya suami yang ngepas-pasin bawaan ke mobil. Mungkin ini terlihat berlebihan (dan ya memang ini berlebihan).

Saat ini Adzra sudah berumur 3 bulan, pergi keluar rumah masih menjadi hal yang ga bikin saya cukup nyaman. Suami suka menasehati (sedikit protes) agar saya bisa lebih santal sedikit, dan ga parno-an. Tujuannya agar kemanapun kita pergi kita bisa jadiin itu saat-saat quality time. Cita-citanya sih pelan-pelan makin nyaman dan percaya diri bawa Adzra kemana-mana agar Adzra juga bisa melihat dunia, gak cuma mandek drumah aja.

Sedih ga sih drumah aja ? eh nggak kok. :D kadang-kadang sesederhana, selonjoran seharian dikasur bertiga ama suami dan anak, bercanda-canda, main bertiga, ga mandi ampe sore pun masih alhamdulillah dirasa seru. Walaupun belum bisa dinner romantis, cukup dibilang "Alhamdulillah jazakillahu khoiro ya bunda udah urus Adzra, sudah sudah kamu istirahat aja" rasanya sudah syukur sekali. Begitu juga dengan suami, tiap saya berterima kasih karna sudah kerja keras ampe malam, dia pun juga merasa senang. Mudah-mudahan dalam waktu dekat pelan-pelan bisa nambah radius keluar rumahnya :D

Udah ya gitu, udah lama ga nulis kagok euy. Ini juga gambar pertama kali sejak lahiran. Itu juga karna Ayah yang dorong dorong, "Udah sana gambar lagi. Adzra ama aku aja". Receh ya tapi yang begitu udah romantis sebenarnya. Sama ditambah tergiur hadiah tote bag :D

Have a nice barokah day !

Sybil.

xoxo

REVIEW : iNEZ Color Contour Plus Eyeshadow

Hi !

Kali ini aku akan mencoba untuk review eyeshadow quad yang aku beli dari berbulan bulan lalu. dan setelah beberapa kali menggunakannya untuk beberapa keperluan ternyata aku suka sama produk ini : Inez Colour Contour Plus Eyeshadow yang Venice.



Kemasannya memang tidak terlihat mahal bahkan terasa plastik namun dengan produk harga kurang lebih Rp. 35,000 sepertinya wajar kalau kemasannya seperti ini. Bahkan ada eyeshadow yang cukup murah namun pelit sama ukuran kaca, jadi menurut aku ini cukup.



Eyeshadow quad ini terdiri dari empat warna yang warnanya warm dan earthy tone. Keempat eyeshadow ini terdiri dari 3 shimmer 1 matte yaitu warna coklat. Untuk warna merah kecoklatan dan emas lebih metalic ketimbang shimmer. Aku suka banget sama tekstur warna reddish copper dan emas di quad ini karna tekstur nya lembut, buttery dan sangat pigmented. Untuk foto diatas adalah sekali oles ya. Untuk warna cream tidak se-metalic warna kedua yang tadi aku jelasin, namun menurut aku teksturnya cukup lembut untuk jadi highlight.

Sedangkan untuk warna coklat sayangnya kurang pigmented. Warna cokelat di palet ini jarang aku gunakan karna lebih baik aku pakai warna cokelat di palet lain yang aku sudah yakin sama kualitasnya. Tapi walaupun begitu aku tetap gunakan quad ini demi hanya karna senang gunakan warna reddish copper dan emas di eyeshadow quad ini. Dan lagi yang aku suka adalah dengan warna eyeshadow ini, aku merasa walaupun aku mengganti warna lipstik aku, tetap bisa masuk look nya.

Kekurangannya adalah :

Eyeshadow ini akan cepat luntur jika tidak menggunakan eyeshadow base. Aku pernah menggunakan maybelline color tatto sebagai base, sayangnya hasilnya akan creasing (FYI tipe kulit aku kering jadi produk yang di orang lain tidak creasing di aku bisa banget jadi terlihat kerutan) jadi kalaupun ingin menggunakan cream eyeshadow sebagai base sebaiknya gunakan tipis saja. Biasanya aku gunakan NYX Jumbo Eye Pencil yang warna milk.

Tiap gunakan eyeshadow ini aku harus tap brush aku agar falloutnya tidak banyak. Jadi harus di build warnanya pelan-pelan aja agar saat nanti saat aku blend eyeshadow-nya tidak terlalu banyak rontok.

Jelas ya jika dipakai saat wudhu mungkin warnanya akan luntur yang dimana wajar. Oleh karna itu aku biasanya gunakan eyeshadow ini hanya jika aku tahu acaranya mungkin tidak lama seperti kondangan. Tapi ya sebenarnya aku menggunakan makeup seperti ini hanya untuk kondangan aja sih.

Aku coba swatch quad INEZ lainnya di Dan+Dan, namun sayangnya yang lain teksturnya beda dengan warna yang aku suka di quad ini. Jadi aku sebenarnya hanya rekomendasikan quad Venice ini saja. Untuk look dibawah ini aku dominan gunakan reddish copper di seluruh kelopok mata, dan di ujung mata dalam aku, aku gunakan warna emasnya. sedangnya untuk ujung mata luar aku harus gunakan warna coklat dari palet The Balm karna warna coklat matte di quad ini susah untuk di buid.

Intinya buat aku, semua kekurangannya ini worth it karna aku suka warnanya, harganya, dan tekturnya.

Produk yang digunakan :

NYX HD Studio Photogenic Primer

Bourjois healthy Mix Foundation

NYX Eyebrow Cake Powder

NYX Jumbo Eye Pencil (Milk)

iNEZ Color Contour Plus Eyeshadow (Venice)
The Balm Nude Dude Vol. 2

Twizzerman Eyelash Curler

Maybelline Big Eyes Volume Express

The Body Shop Honey Bronzer

The Balm Mary Lou Manizer

The Balm Bahama Mama

Rimmel London Stay Matte Pressed Powder

Stilla Stay All Day Liquid Lipstik (Patina)

Purbasari Matte Lipstick No.81

NYX Soft Matte Lips Cream (Copenhagen)

Sekian review singkat dari aku, aku sebenarnya merokendasikan quad ini bagi yang suka warna natural  dan mencari eyeshadow quad yang harganya terjangkau namun cukup bagus, tapi tetap ya produk ini butuh dibantu produk lain agar hasilnya tahan lama.

Ba Bai !

Love,

Sybil 

IG : @sybilyusrinaputri

Illustration IG : @sybil.yusrina.putri

Everyday Makeup Tutorial (School / Kuliah Makeup)

Hi Internet Peeps !

Beberapa bulan yang lalu, aku coba buat video dan berani berani nya upload ke Youtube. Yes ! Youtube ! Jujur video ini memalukan sekali. Hancur cur. Video ga fokus, tangan geter. Tapi anehnya ada kepuasan sendiri setelah selesai edit. Tadinya ga mau upload. Tapi aku pikir aku harus berani, dan pelajaran yang aku dapat selama setahun terakhir adalah untuk tidak membiarkan rasa takut aku mengekang diri aku apa adanya.

Disclaimer ! aku bukan expert. Aku juga tidak sekolah makeup. Aku cuma kebetulan punya kesempatan dan dukungan Alhamdulillah dari orang-orang yang dekat sama aku untuk lebih terbuka dengan dunia internet untuk bisa mengeksplore hobi aku. Yang dimana sekian tahun sudah menjadi zona tidak nyaman aku.

Jadi ini video tentang bagaimana natural makeup buat aku. Sebenarnya ada banyak video tutorial mengenai makeup natural. Tapi tiap aku liat video tersebut aku pikir, "Ada gitu yang ke kampus make contour? lol". Jadi aku bikin video ini yang memang apa adanya makeup yang aku pakai ke kantor atau bahkan ke kampus mungkin kalau aku sekolah lagi.

So here it is ! Click this video below to watch, and give it a tubs up if you like it, if you don't please WA aku aja ya temen-temen buat negur haha.

See you on the next post !
xoxo,
Sybil

Review : Vaseline Petrolum Jelly

Hai internet peeps !

Stars : 8/10

Kali ini aku bakal sharing review Vaseline Petrolum Jelly. Siapa sih yang ga tau produk ini ? Ini kayaknya ampe turun menurun digunakan di keluarga aku. Tapi sayangnya sudah lama sekali produk ini susah ditemukan di Indonesia. Kalaupun dijual, aku menemukan ini di online shop. Dan akhirnya sebulan yang lalu aku menemukan ini dijual di mothercare. Aku juga suka kemasannya yang lebih kecil jadi aku sering bawa kemana-mana. Di mothercare, produk ini dijual dengan harga Rp 59,000.

Review setelah penggunaan sebulan :

+ Harga nya masih bersahabat
+ Ukurannya yang mudah dibawa kemana-mana
+ Ampuh melembabkan bibir tanpa keliatan glossy
+ Bisa digunakan dibawah lipstik
+ Cocok digunakan baik saat sebelum tidur atau kegiatan sehari -hari

- Susah ditemukan
- Kurang higienis karna harus make jari

See you on the next post ! :D

xoxo,
Sybil.

My brow gone mainstream !

Brows has been a trend. Like-literally now every time I interact with people I always see-bam!-their eye brows.  No idea why. I just do. Is it just me or what ?. Ok well, I always believe nothing wrong with any makeup technique people use. Its make up. If you don't like it-just wipe it off. And makeup is fun!. I know some people can be so critical towards make up. Make up does not cover any insecurities of mine. I do it cause it simply fun.

Ok I'm getting off topic. Stop.

I'm going to share what my brows has been loving. I personally like natural brows. I like it when make up enhance my natural feature instead of making me look like someone else. So that's why I'm struggling with brows product. I am no expert but I can never find the perfect shade. Black shade is too dark. Its like I draw my brow with marker. Not cute. Na-ah. But then brown shade is just not look natural on me. I don't get it every time I asked people, they always say if I want natural looking brow, I should use brown shade. No girl no. I end up having brown shade at the end of my brow and my natural hair colour picking through. Unless~~~ if you using brown brow gel to make your brow hair also brown. That makes sense. But Its not for me. This is my personal preference. Some people can work any brow colour looks, but not me.

Again bil, stop getting off topic. Let's get into it. These are what I usually use for my brow.

Before I get into the products and also showing you pictures I wearing them. I should show you what my naked brows look like. As you can see I have dark hair brow. There's no way brown shade brow look good on me. And all these pictures are not retouched or photoshopped. I don't trim my eye brow just because I don't. I like the messy brow look tho. Better to have more than have nothing, aight ?

Also---excuse my pimples in my forehead who try to introduce them self in these pictures.

1.  Body Shop Brow & Liner Kit (Powder)

I actually don't use brow powder that much. Just because I don't find it natural cause it more browny shade compared to my natural hair. I should've try darker shade one. But this powder is pretty good and pigmented. I am not recommend for you to depend on the applicator from it if you want a more precise brow look. That's why you can see I just fill them in and not try to reshape the brow. The good thing is, this kit is also does a great job as eye shadows. So for travelling, this is great to do a soft smokey eyes as I use in this photo.

2. Body Shop Carbon Blue Eye Definer

I really love this Body Shop Carbon Blue Eye Definer. Yes you read it just right, I use blue eyeliner on my brow. 

So there's a story for this. Body Shop has been my go to shop place for skin care. They have great products for dry skins people. I-am-a-dry skin girl. I can get dry patches everywhere (gross, I know). And their products work great on me. But in terms of cosmetics, I rarely gravitate towards this brand, and one day I ran out my eyeliner and decided to give this baby a try. As I swatched it my hand, It looks like grayish blue. I thought wow this could be great cause there are some days that I find black eyeliner is super boring. As i got home and tried it out. This does nothing to my eyes. I have naturally dark circles on both my eyelids and eye bag. This-does-nothing. So I let it on my make up box for such a long time. As I mentioned before, I don't the like way brown brow powder look on me. And one day, out of the blue, I just realized why dont I give this greyish blue a try. And it works wonder ! One tip, if you are not comfortable with strong brow for daily activities and your hair is dark or like intense dark, find greyish eyeliner or brow powder. This shade will make your brow look naturally full-imho. And to blend them in I use this Real Technique brush, I forget the name but this brush is such a great quality and also great price. 

I know~~ It does not look that clean. Again, I haven't find "instagram brow" look appealing on me. I like the messy one. Again, this is my personal preference. I see so many people look great on many shape of eye brows. I personally think eye brows are unique so every one shouldn't need to have the same shape (I mean for daily activities, for formal events or weddings I do find strong brow is more appropriate)

So enough of me. It feels so good to be back on blogging. See you on the next post !

xoxo,

What I would tell my-younger-self

Hi !

I know Its been a really long time. I checked the last time I posted it was 9 Februari 2013. It was freaking 2 years ago ! It is been fo-e-ve since I have a true artist guts to share anything and be proud of any work I did. So as a comeback (I tried), I will make a post and writing what I would tell my-younger-self. I know why I quit at that time and after 2 years had passed, I have something to say and hopefully this can help anyone visit this blog. 

(i'm about to drop some cheesiness-bewaree~)

One, be honest in what you love to do. 

I remember the first time I posted in this blog, I was in college. A total clueless girl. I tweeted a lot, blogging daily and fascinated with how facebook works at that time (masih norak). Starting a blog thinking no one will ever see this anyway so in conclusion--- I was a human spam. lol. Just now I realize these days when everything goes in speed in digital world. 

You dont have to be "amazing" to be noticed. You just have to be proud of your works. How come someone know my work, asking me about possibility of collaboration considering my low level of self-promotion.  I didn't honest to myself who I am and what I love. I would never thought myself as a designer/illustrator/artist or else because I never simply honest in what I actually love to do or just because I didn't have a degree for it. If I could meet my-younger-self I would totally slap myself and scream at the top of my lungs, "What's wrooooong with youuu ???! You missed a lot of opportunities just because you were too afraid to admit you are a designer, an illustrator or anything ! -name yourself all you want-cause that's who you want to be". Dont be me, in 24-ish years old just realized how many years I had spent for doubting myself. 

Two, people will always talk. 

I always afraid of what other people saying. Many people do. So. Stop. Just. Stop. 

So nooow ! I have two blogs to maintain www.sybilyusrinaputri.tumblr.com will be focus on portfolio (works and projects) and this blog will be the place I would do or post the heck anything I want ! oh and btw this blog desperately need some make over. 

You may see tons of incorrect english grammar and words mispelled. You may also see bunch of crappy artworks, unfinished diy projects or even beauty product review from a total amateur who has uneven wing liner. Because I want to. That's why. And I need to. 

xoxo,

DIY : I just turned my oversized shirt into cardigan

I learned this from youtube so you can check the tutorial with keywords "DIY turn shirt into cardigan" by simply cut the middle of the shirt with scissors. But I stitched the hem, i tried to made it look more neat cause  if dont sew em, the fabric just curls. I used my unbranded oversized shirt. I bought this in big sale in Bandung. It only cost 25.000 rupiah so it cheaps enough for my first try hehe.

you can see the fabric just curls by itself so i need it to be sewed

looks better huh ?

taraa !

I have leftover label from LRBM so i just stitched it. I know I shouldnt put my name label on something i dont make from scratch. but i dont sell this i only wear this and it didnt have any label before. and also its kinna fun to see your own name on your own clothes. its every girls' dreams you knoow~ :D

I also added elbow patches. its kinna cool. its not that neat since its my first try. but im happy with this ! :D

SUPER LOVE !

xoxo,

Sybil

oops, apparently there is a label on this shirt, i missed it before. so this shirt is from :

GF LRBM 2012 part 1

Assalamualaikum..

FINALLY !  LRBM 2012 was done ! *pheew. Last few months I had busy with preparation for the LRBM 2012. LRBM stands for Lomba Rancang Busana Muslimah 2012. I was selected as one of finalist since March or May this year. I am one of the top 15 finalists. This event is actually composed of several series of events from consultation with juries and stuff. I didn't post any update related to this event cause honestly there're like few times I intended to quit. because this-is-hard. Other finalists have great talent, amazing years of experience and education and even knowledge about fashion and the business. And me ? I'm just a last year college student who study communication since sophomore and I can't even sew my own button how could I be a designer only for few weeks ! I am not even that close to fashionista. I wear jeans, shirts and blazer most of the time and I hated make up, they make me feel itchy. But I just gotta do what i had to do. I may be everything I even a quitter sometimes but not this time. Only for few months I was trying to catch up, browsing through internet buying some books-magazine, who's in right now, what's in and what's out. Learning about fabric, There were no week I had spent without at least once or twice going to the fabric stores and acc stores. I never knew before learning process could be that exausting and fun.

Among the process, my best friends and boyfriend, helps me so much. My boyfriend may be the most second exausted person these few months. He has a big heart and patience and time for me. He's everything. love. And my best friends, they may the only group of people who believe in me while others dont, even myself. They would spent hours listening me stressing out about everything and they just listen, they're amazing. I don't have that much best friends or true friends but they're priceless to me. Also my friends they sent me luck wishes and It feels great and I feel blessed.

So long-short story the show for the Grand final was held at Gandaria City Jakarta as one of the fashion show represented by IIFF (Indonesia Islamic Fashion Festival). Do you ever heard the hijabers or hijabistas ? It's like the nest. So as I told you before I was the only rookie among the 15 people and that made everything excites me-everything !. The show was started 2 pm but the designers already there since 8 in the morning. And I was the second arrived, everybody was late. That morning the designers met the models. Subhanallah, they were impossibly gorgeous and skinny and tall. I was stunned. I didn't know they would pick the model agent looked that pretty. GR started around nine. And the fitting began. This is my first show ever and i dont even know they will be another second, but what most excites me was the backstage part of the show. The hectic atmosphere, the make up artist-the hijab stylist-the designers-the models- It was unbelievable. It was not that big but It was my first-ever-cause I am a no one so this is special. When the show starts, the light was on, the music starts, the models walked the runway with your clothes- It was amazing. Undescribable feeling. Blessed all the professionals who gets to do this every month.

For the backstage, designers were asked to prepared photos of the total look and detail of acc and hijab. Everybody turned out to make a very simple photos. I was so excited I even made my own hijab tutorial. That's okay ! cause I'm pretty happy with the result. First I wanna show you the designs. These are the first design which got me through into 15 finalists. My theme was GREEK INSPIRED.

These are the hijab tutorial I made for hijab stylist who worked in the backstage. The hijab was so simple as simple as who I really am. - -

Photographer : papa

Editing : me

These are the final designs for the show

And these are the final result, I am so FAR from model. so pardon my....everything in these photos *ugh. 

I know I made some weird poses. Papa and my sister kept telling me how I was supposed to pose like It's so easy. It's not easy.

I don't have the runway photos-yet. I'm still waiting from the NooR magazine and documentation from other finalist and friends. That's why I hope there's gonna be a second part-soon. 

I remember how horrible last Ramadhan was, I remember how crushing down I was. And to be where I am now, who I am with, this year, It's unbelievable. And I wish there are more great news to come, like graduation :)

woman-men-money

Hello, The Holy Month of Ramadhan ! this is maybe the most special year consider what I had gone through few years back then. I’m overwhelmed with gratitude. So much blessing and countless gift I have received.

Few days ago I bumped into an old friend, we usually dont talk much but you know-girrllllssss- you could be months not talking then you two end up talking about men for hours. Men is a universal topic. And I hate talking about my thesis and bla bla bla, talking about men giving me more fun lol. What’s interesting is the way she opened the conversation by talking,

“ What such a bullshit that society wants men to be in higher level to woman”.

Anyway she’s a muslim, her hijab falling down cover her bust and she is more knowledgable about islam than I do. In my mind, I instantly connected her statement to muslim stereotype or what written in Holy Quran and hadits. And abviously she just broke that stereotype hehe.

She said she wants a man who will find it okay if she works 9 to 5 and making her own income. So my question was, “Do you find it okay if your man making less income than you do?”, she said,”No, that’s why I’m looking for a man with higher career level so he can make more money” . There are so many high-educated woman nowadays so I personally find it normal if a woman refuse their years of studying going to waste. That why I see there’s a challenge for these well-educated woman to put respect to their husband once they get marry cause woman think that man should always be try harder.

She wants a husband who makes more money than she is-plus-she wont taking any order from her husband cause she wants to be on the same level with him. Then she asked me (btw I made lots of confused expression),

“Oh, C’mon bil. Lets just be realistic, who doesnt not want to marry a guy with money, right ? Don’t you ever get tempted by that?”

She gave me the confused look or like ‘ah really’ look to respond my answer. I maybe gave her the answer she didn’t really wanna hear. I dont really think that woman have to be in lower level to men cause I think in some of condition, that doesnt really work today. But I do believe that a wife should be in under level than her husband. That’s how I raised. And my dad always tell me how i should serve and put respect to my future husband no matter how high my education title is. It is my personal believe and my parents principal so I try to manage that. But I told her, that is right-any woman wants to find a job, get a carrier, buy her own stuff, or maybe back to school again- I do want that. But I dont want to be the worst housewife and let my babysitter to be the mother of my own children. So my princple is just go with the flow but stick into what I plan for my life but when the qadar comes, I have to serve my husband and letting go some of the plan. The point is what I’m trying to say, don't get marry if you're not ready. Cause my dad told me that once I get marry I dont live for myself anymore. I will live for someone else and live based on someone else approval and needs. And I think It’s not always a bad thing. Marriage is a beautiful thing cause it will lead you to so many blessing ahead. It’s just I dont wanna screw things up.

Along the conversation about an ideal men from her standpoint, I asked her so many questions out of curiosity. Cause you know Its rare to find young men who have the faith and the wealth in one package. She said she used to search for a guy who has pontential to be rich, but all she she wants now  is the really wealthy one. And of course she asked what about me. Again, I told her that my parents were starting from zero. The first time my dad proposed to my mom, he’s still in college and didnt have a job. But my mom approved him based on my dad’s faith.

“Kalau menikah berdasarkan tahta, kita gak akan mendapatkan semuanya. 

Tapi kalo kita menikah berdasarkan iman, Allah bakal ngasih semuanya” -papa

And It is approved ! my parents have children, their own house, and they still madly in love until this day. What I love about them, they’re like best friends. They started since zero. They didn’t have money. My dad search for a job in such young age to support the family. My mom helping by anything she could do, selling snacks, cookies and everything. She didn’t have the marriage ring cause my dad couldn’t afford it. And now I have more that any girl could wish for alhamdulillah. But still-my parents case is really rare. But I told her my parents is a living proof, maybe I could do the same. Marrying my best friend, and seeing him based on his faith. I know sounds like a fairytale but I believe what God promises. Me and my friend agree that the case is really rare and my parents are the lucky one. We just never know. But I just stick into with what the way I raise. I love talking with a person who has defferent standpoint and find there’s nothing wrong with different state of mind.

And what I love about her, she’s honest. She’s honest about this whole -woman-men-money thingy. Cause its not easy for woman to talk about what they really want in a man, while the truth is they just want living a nice life after the marriage. It’s principal. I find it nothing wrong in any of those options. Who doesnt want that ?

But !

Like my dad said if i marry based on faith, then I get everything, don’t you ever get tempted by that ? :p

xoxo,

twenty second

I'M TWENTY second~ ! last month 19th !

*anyway pardon about the wrong grammar. its supposed to be TWENTY SECOND but I wrote it twenty two with-th. Can't do any correction cause no one using photoshop prog at home.

this is outdated post,freaking late i know but I'm super excited. Normally I'm not a really birthday kinna girl. But this year is special. At first I wasn't even thinking about celebrating cause I never do that and I think It's overrated. I never throw a birthday party and still I won't. Cause in my religion and the way I raise, we just dont celebrate a birthday. It's the day we should be grateful and- mourn cause we lost another year to live and we got closer to death. My partner and I decided not to throw any party or even dinner in 19th May. Actually I just wanna be at home in my birthday this year. I just realized I didn't at home in my birthday last year-and another last year-okay, I didn't at home for my birthday three times in a row. But I always went home after few days of my birthday. I know I might be not a perfect daughter *sigh*. So ! few days before D-day, my partner surprised me with a little cake and a box of present in front of my door. He said It wasn't really my birthday so It's allowed. He's smart ! and He got me a night lamp, which I LOOOVE ! when you turn on the lamp you can see blue ocean wave in my wall moving- It's so cool ! and It's also a speaker ! God, I love presents, who doesn't ?

As I planned,I was homed in my birthday. And It turned out to be the best day evah. My family decided to eating out. It's rare. In my family, we're pretty much close but we don't do holiday. My parents not really into travelling, actually I do. But my parents never allow me cause they think this world full of rapist and It's a dangerous world out there. I know the world outside the door sounds creepy but we don't do outing much, so when we really hanging out, I really appreciate the chance. Tadaa I took some pictures, unfortunately no one could take my photo without getting blur so I don't have a nice picture of myself to show. :|

first my parents took me and my sister went lunch !

 aren't they lovely ? :3

then I got a surprise visit ! *love *love *love

so much love for my parents, sister, mas dimas (ilysm btw :3) meyya, madel, momon, ayu, mas adit, and for those ho couldn't come saski and nisa, thank you :*